The past couple of days, I’ve been feeling like a total screw up. I feel like I’m doing everything wrong; I’m feeling shame. There are also some things that I’m avoiding because I know/feel as if I’m going to mess it all up. I don’t know where these feelings are coming from. I’m reading into everything that people say; somehow, I can find negative things about myself when others are talking. The “funny” part about it is that people don’t even have to be talking about me for me to find something negative about myself.
I think a lot of it comes from my weight gain. I look in the mirror, and I automatically feel sad and pathetic. All I see is the person I don’t want to be. I feel like I can’t talk to others properly, I can’t stay organized, I can’t workout well enough, I can’t cook right, I can’t get things done, I just can’t do anything right. I wish I knew how to get rid of this feeling. This overwhelming feeling is taking control of my mind and body.
Even though I know that I don’t do everything wrong, I still feel as if I do. I don’t know why that is. For instance, I know I’m a good cook; so why do I feel like the dinners I’m making suck? I’m also a very organized person, but I feel like my house is unorganized and I don’t know how to fix it. I know the truth, but what I don’t know is why I still feel this way even though I know it’s false.
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Wow. Just wow. I can relate whole heartedly to this post. I lived for years like this, actually, probably my entire life. I recently found the strength and hope to get out of this funk. I would always feel like less than human, a scum, waste. These thoughts still surface but I have learned ways to escape my mind and find better meaning in life. Keep up the inspirational posts!
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Thanks for telling me about your experiences. It helps me feel less alone. I appreciate it!
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I can relate.
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I’m sorry that you understand, I don’t wish this on anyone. But at least I know I’m not alone. Thank you.
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Definitely not alone. We’re all in this together.
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I think we’ve all been there before. I know I have!The trick is to not let that feeling overtake you. Even though it is there, it won’t always be. It WILL go away and things will get better. Always!
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Thank you for your encouragement
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Hang in there.. you have support. Also, you are never alone. I just posted about this earlier today.
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Thanks for your support and encouragement.
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I am so sorry you are feeling like this. It sucks.
May I ask – what would you say to someone who told you they were feeling like this, perhaps in their post, or in a conversation? Can you offer that same patience and kindness to yourself? I know it is easier said than done…
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That’s a good point. I would probably ask someone to talk about things they enjoy. For me, that would be cooking. I enjoy it and I know I’m a good cook. But the feelings are still there. These emotions don’t necessarily make sense. The emotions are there even when I know that they’re not right.
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I hate having those times like you are now. I empathize with what you’re going through. I wish I had some sage advice to give you, but I don’t other than to remind you that if you just ride it out you know it will eventually go away. I know, I know, not real helpful right now
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Thanks for sharing with me. Knowing that it will eventually go away is the only thing helping me right now. I’ll go up and down emotionally. Nothing is ever going to be forever with me.
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Hang on there! You are very brave for getting your story out there!
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Thanks for your support
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