I grew up in Connecticut, but I currently live in Arizona. Being that far away from my family is extremely hard for me. Family is very important to me; it’s a struggle not being able to see them whenever I want. Thankfully, I see my mom every 3 months, but I don’t always see the rest of my family. I’m excited because in less than 6 weeks, I will get to see my whole family. I’m counting the days now!
There have been several moments where I came close to caving and asking my mom to bring me home, but I stuck it out. I get home sick for Connecticut fairly often. Especially this time of year, I miss the fall foliage; I deeply miss the beauty of New England. When I struggle with homesickness, my anxiety is almost always increased.
I’m lucky to get along with all of my in-laws. However, sometimes the more time I spend with my in-laws, the more I miss my own family. No matter how much time I spend with my in-laws or how well we get along, I still miss my family. I wonder if being homesick this often is normal.
Generally, when I’m in Connecticut, I miss my husband and friends and want to go back to Arizona. When I’m in Arizona, I miss my family and want to be in Connecticut. No matter where I am, I want to be somewhere else. Does anyone have thoughts on the subject? Do other people get along with their family as well as I do?
My Side of the Pole 
It makes sense. I felt the same when I live in Missouri, Alabama, and even SC. NC is home to me and I just wanted to come home. But then I would come home and want to go back.
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It’s nice to know I’m not alone with these feelings.
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You aren’t. I get excited about going to the beach for 4 days with my family every year, but by day 2 or 3 I’m over it and ready to come home.
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I suppose the visits are nicer in our minds than in reality.
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I suppose. My dog, Moose, is the same way. He loves going places, but when it is time for bed he wants to be in his own bed (or spot on my bed I should say).
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I find I always want to be somewhere else as well, no matter where I am. I’m never fully ‘present’ wherever I am. It has resulted in a lot of moving from place to place, (one of my bipolar symptoms is that I sporadically want to move when I am manic) but I know deep down that whatever I’m searching for, my fulfillment isn’t going to come from a certain location. I have to figure out what’s missing in my life and find peace with it.
I currently don’t communicate with family for triggering reasons. It has allowed me to regain some sense of sanity. I’m glad you have a close relationship with yours.
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Moving a lot must be difficult for you. It takes a lot of courage. I feel as if I have two homes, Connecticut and Arizona. I wish I could figure out what’s missing in my life as well to bring me some peace.
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