Missing Meetings

Soberity 3-19-17

Our realtor is a person that my husband and I have known for a very long time. We met her over a decade ago in the rooms of AA. One of the times that we met up with her regarding the house  hunting, we met at a place where I used to go to meetings almost every day. I stopped going to meetings a few years ago because I was sick and tired of people telling me I wasn’t sober because of the medications I was taking. The meetings also caused a lot of anxiety for me and it just got to be too much for me to handle.

Meeting my realtor at my old meeting hall brought back a feeling of serenity that I’ve been missing. The meeting hall moved to a different place and I was afraid to go because I don’t like going anywhere new on my own. Now that I’ve been there (even though it was just for a few moments) I think I want to go back to a meeting. I’m not comfortable going on my own, so I’m going to ask my old sponsor if she would accompany me to a meeting. I’m hoping that I have the courage to go to a meeting in the next couple of weeks.

If/when I go to a meeting, I just need to keep my mental health separate. Talking about my mental health is probably not the best idea in an AA meeting.

5 thoughts on “Missing Meetings

  1. I would “suggest”, as you already mentioned, not to discuss your mental health condition/medications. Not that you should be ashamed at all; such discussion should be between you and your doctor. Look at it this way – from my experience. Almost 95% or more of those people in the meeting are most likely on some sort of medication for their own mental illness. In other words, your not alone!! 🙂

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    1. I agree. I know that I can discuss my mental health with my sponsor (I’ve known her for 11 years and she is very understanding). However, mental health and medications is not something that should be discussed in meetings.

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  2. i honor for heading to meetings. when it comes to meds, set your own sobriety. i mean, does someone taking insulin violate the principle of sobriety? meds for bp, in my mind, are just as necessary as insulin. if people trying to set your sobriety would live a month with bp, with no end in sight, they be pining for the same meds you take.

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