Questions Answered About My Bipolar Episodes and Treatment

Questions Answered About My Bipolar Episodes and Treatment

These questions are from bipolarsojourner

What are my successes and frustrations with ECT?
When I first started ECT, I did it for a while, probably about a year. I don’t remember it at all. But I decided to stop because I wasn’t sure if it was working or not. So I stopped for a while, about 6 months maybe. Then when I started back up I knew for certain that it was helping because it helped bring me out of a big depression. I now do ECT once every other week. It destroys my memory, but it helps my depression. I’m hoping that I can soon switch to doing a treatment once every four weeks. I honestly don’t remember much of anything. It even messes up my memories from before I started ECT, when I was a little kid. They said that is very unlikely, but it happened to me.

How does your husband support you? Is it effective?
My husband is very supportive. He was my best friend and knew all about my bipolar disorder before we started dating. He helps me recognize when I’m in an episode and helps me remember to take my medication. He’s very understanding when I’m not feeling up to doing something. For example, I had a hard time when our dog died this past April. He was ready to get a new dog before I was. He didn’t push me to get another dog, he let me wait until I was ready. My husband makes me feel safe and comfortable being myself, it is extremely effective.

What is your depression and mania like? Do you have benefits from your bipolar?
During my depressions, I always end up eating excessively and gaining weight. I tend to sleep a lot, I lose interest and often don’t care about things that I normally care about. I get angry easily and often feel worthless and suicidal. During my manic episodes, I generally go many days at a time without sleeping (my insomnia get really bad). I usually have racing thoughts, I get all jittery, I don’t make any sense, and I talk really fast (so much so that it sounds like I’m using drugs again, but I’m not). I also get suicidal during manic episodes. I used to self-harm during both depressive and main episodes, but it’s been many years since I’ve done that (although, to be honest, I think about it a lot). I prefer to be manic than depressed. At least when I’m manic I can get things done and I have the energy to workout. I can lose weight when I’m manic a lot easier, but when I’m depressed, I almost always gain weight.

Do You Have Any Questions For Me?

Do You Have Any Questions For Me?

Some days, I have a hard time coming up with topics to write about. I write about what’s going on in my mind, but some days, my mind is completely blank. That’s probably because of ECT.

I figured I would reach out to my readers. Is there anything that you would like me to write about? Do you have any questions for me? Or would you like to hear my point of view on any specific topics? I hope to hear from some of you.

Getting To Know Me – 50 Questions

Getting To Know Me – 50 Questions

I saw I Am My Own Island do this post by answering the fifty unique questions below. I enjoyed reading her answers and thought I would do my own.

  1. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
    Open
  2. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
    No
  3. Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
    Untucked
  4. Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
    No
  5. Do you like to use post-it notes?
    No
  6. What is your biggest pet peeve?
    Not putting things away; I crave organization
  7. Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
    My phone keeps track of my steps
  8. Is it okay for guys to wear pink as a color?
    Why not?
  9. Whats your least favorite movie?
    I don’t remember
  10. What do you drink with dinner?
    Soda or water
  11. What is your favorite food?
    Almost any kind of pasta
  12. What movie could you watch over and over and still love?
    The first one that comes to mind is Grease
  13. Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
    Never, I’m way too self-conscious
  14. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
    Does writing a card count? If so, just a couple of days ago
  15. Favorite kind of sandwich?
    Melted pepperoni and cheese
  16. Best thing to eat for breakfast?
    Ham, egg, and cheese sandwich
  17. What is your usual bedtime?
    Anywhere from 10pm to midnight
  18. Are you lazy?
    For the most part, yes.
  19. How many languages can you speak?
    Just English
  20. Do you sing in the shower?
    Sometimes
  21. Is Christmas stressful?
    Definitely
  22. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
    A pharmacist
  23. Do you believe in ghosts?
    No
  24. Wear slippers?
    Sometimes
  25. Ever been in love?
    Yes
  26. Who would you like to see in concert?
    Led Zeppelin
  27. Hot tea or cold tea?
    Hot
  28. Tea or coffee?
    Tea
  29. Ever had plastic surgery?
    No
  30. Do you want to get married?
    I am married; 3 years
  31. Do you want kids?
    I can’t have kids, but I think about it often. I am a grandma (my step-daughter has a 15 month old beautiful daughter)
  32. Whats your favorite color?
    Burgundy
  33. Do you miss anyone right now?
    My mom, always
  34. Things you cannot leave the house without?
    My phone and purse
  35. Do you drink energy drinks?
    No
  36. Do you drink juice?
    Sometimes apple juice
  37. Do you eat fries with a fork?
    No
  38. Any phobias?
    Snakes, spiders and bugs
  39. What is your middle name?
    Lee
  40. What was favorite subject at school?
    Math and science, it’s a tie
  41. What is your favorite drink?
    Hot cocoa
  42. What is your favorite song at the moment?
    The Joker by the Steve Miller Band
  43. What is the last thing you bought?
    Groceries and prescriptions
  44. How many siblings do you have?
    Two, an older brother and older sister
  45. When was the last time you cried?
    Earlier today
  46. Favorite TV shows?
    Criminal Minds, Blacklist, Good Behavior, Designated Survivor, New Girl, and Big Bang Theory
  47. PC or Mac?
    PC
  48. What phone do you have?
    Galaxy S6
  49. How tall are you?
    5′ 4″
  50. Can you cook?
    I love to cook and I’m pretty good at it. I make a really good Shepherds Pie, Chicken Tetrazzini, Pulled Pork, and many other things

If anyone wants to do this as well, just mention my blog so I can make sure to check it out.