I don’t feel like myself. In fact, it’s been a while since I’ve felt like myself. I’m numb, emotionless, disconnected. I can’t figure out if this is better or worse than feeling the depths of depression. I’m still able to fake being ‘okay’ when I need to, but pretending is exhausting. It takes everything I’ve got to put on a fake smile and talk to others.
I keep moving forward, one step at a time. I have no clue how I do it or how I continue to get things done. I spend most of my days alone while my husband is at work. Being alone is so much easier for me than being around people. Every once in a while, I get urges of frustration. I vent for a minute and then it’s back to feeling nothing.
My Side of the Pole 
I can relate… Hugs to you
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Thanks
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Oh man I have been there and it sure is a strange feeling like the Twilight zone or something.
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Thanks. I like your reference to ‘feeling like the Twilight zone’. It’s a great description.
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I remember that feeling well. I remember being very interested how neutral I felt to everything and how still I felt. It fascinated me because it was such a new feeling. Then I would do things to test the current state of mind to see if I could get a rise out of myself. LOL
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