I can’t believe it, but I actually got my Clozapine prescription filled on the first try. That’s the first time that’s ever happened. Hopefully it will continue like that.
I had plans today to spend time with my husband and his family. First, we grilled some steaks and then played cards with his mother and brother. Then we went to karaoke with his father and brother. I don’t mind doing these things; in fact, I enjoy spending time with my husband’s family. The only part of it that I don’t like is making plans ahead of time. I never know how I’m going to feel when it comes time to follow through with any plans I’ve made, but I guess that’s why I take Valium. Even if I don’t feel up to it, taking medication helps me follow through with plans that I’ve made.
I know that my depression has been weighing on my husband. He already has enough on his mind. Between his mom’s cancer, his brother’s possible heart problem, and his own back problems, he has enough to deal with. The fact that he cares about me is wonderful, but I feel like I’m a downer on life in general; I’m just putting a bigger strain on life. I hate being a drag to others. I wish there was a way around all of this, but there isn’t. So, I just have to accept life the way it is, and maybe things will improve over time.
it sucks to be down. i know when i’m down, a reality distortion field forms around me . everyone around me hates me or is just about done with me. their reassurance of all is well go unheard. the distortion field tells me they are lying. question the reality distortion field. i have found it hides the truth.
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That’s exactly how I feel. I wish I could change it all, but at least right now I know it’s all distorted. Thanks for you input; it’s very helpful and insightful.
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Hey you got the meds on the first try. In the midst of all the crap, one small flower.
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I was so surprised! Like you said, at least one good thing happened.
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Hang in there I know how bad the depression sucks
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