I have so much to do lately, but it’s extremely hard to get any of it done. The main reason for the difficulty is because I’m having a hard time remembering just about anything. The ECT is causing a lot of memory loss, despite the fact that I’m on two different medications (Memantine and Donepezil) to help my memory. I can’t remember what I’m supposed to be doing, what I have done, or even what I do or don’t enjoy doing.

I miss my memory. You don’t always realize how important something is, until  you don’t have it anymore. I wish I had the ability to respond to people accurately. I wish I had the ability to know what I truly wanted in life. I wonder if there is anything that will help my memory come back. Will these medications ever kick in?

6 thoughts on “I Miss My Memory

  1. i feel for you. i struggle along with my feeble memory, spittering and sputtering. i already feel handicapped by it. i care not to imagine what it would be to lose even a portion of that.

    did you recover none/some/most/all of ability to remember after your first round of ect?

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    1. My memory came back somewhat after I stopped ECT, but it did not get better while doing the treatment. ECT is not something that I think I will be able to stop, at least for a long time. The last time I stopped, my symptoms worsened greatly.


  2. Memory loss also happens the older we get in life. I have lapses in memory, thus I try to keep notes of important things, so I don’t forget. I write things in my calendar, review them daily. I also keep a to-do-list for those wishful things that aren’t really important but someday I would like to get them done. However, when I’m not in front of my computer, such as at work, memory can be an issue for me. I get distracted and I’m so busy I don’t even have time to pull out my smartphone. Try keeping a small notebook next to you or in your purse/pocketbook. Something written down may trigger the memory and strengthen your memory skills.

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  3. I’m sorry you’re going through this. I can relate though I haven’t had ECT. My memory and cognition have been effected by bipolar disorder, too. ❤

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