I have been trying my hardest to help myself feel better, both mentally and physically. Over the past 6 to 8 months, my depression has helped me to gain weight and feel worthless. I’ve lost some weight, but I’ve been stuck at the weight for over a month now. It doesn’t help that I enjoy cooking and eating (of course). Cooking helps me feel useful. It’s something that I’m good at and I even enjoy it. I’ve decided to cut back on my cooking; and when I do cook, I will be cooking healthier. I think that I should try to find another activity that I can do and want to do.
I got a lot of stuff done today, especially since I started my day out with another ECT treatment. I tried to rest after my ECT, but it didn’t work at all. I just laid in bed for about 30 minutes without the ability to fall asleep; it was extremely frustrating. I also went grocery shopping and worked on my taxes. And soon, I’m about to start cooking dinner; beef and bacon smoked sausage with sun-dried tomatoes and mushrooms. Tomorrow is going to be an even busier day; my dog goes to the vet for a bath, then I have an appointment with my therapist, I need to get my regular blood work done, I need to clean my house, and then my mom comes to visit for a week (yay!!!) I have no clue when I’m going to find time to clean the house and get everything done, but somehow I will make it work.
I also bought tickets to a Coyotes (hockey) game for next Monday. The seats are 4th row almost center ice for only $60 a piece. My husband and I could pass up the deal. This is going to be only my 2nd time with seats this good.
While my mom is visiting, we have lots to do. Everyone (meaning my in-laws) all want to visit with my mom, so I’ve scheduled for us to go out to a few different meals. I understand why my in-laws want to spend time with my mom, and of course I want them to all spend time together; however, I don’t really want to share any of the time that I have with her. I am sharing our time together, but I’m quite a bit jealous.
Yesterday, I offered to make my chocolate mousse and bring it to Thanksgiving. Then I went to the grocery store and couldn’t find all of the ingredients. I need two packages of Ladyfingers, but they only had one. The manager even checked in the back, but he couldn’t find any. That means that I have to go to the grocery store again today, on one of the busiest days of the year. I’m really nervous about that. I know I don’t have to make the dessert, they have plenty of food, but I want to, it’s really delicious. I’m going to go to the store soon, hopefully it won’t be too horribly busy. I’ll let you know how it goes.
I stopped the juicing. My husband and I made it about two weeks, with some slip ups along the way. Yesterday, we decided together to stop the juicing. That means that I get to start cooking again, which is one of my favorite things to do; I really missed cooking over the last couple weeks. Last night I made sausage and peppers and the night before that I made a cheesy sausage and rice skillet. It’s nice to have someone to cook for, it’s not as much fun cooking for just yourself.
I also like trying new recipes, most of the new ones don’t turn out so well. I think that it’s worth it if every one in five recipes turns out to be good. Most new recipes aren’t that great; but there’s only one way to find something new, and that is to try it. My husband is so sweet, he will eat a meal even if it didn’t turn out well. I won’t eat it, but he will. When the recipes don’t turn out the way I hoped, I’d rather order take-out than try eating a bad tasting meal.