My sleep has been screwed up for the past 2 weeks. Some nights I only sleep 3 – 5 hours and others its 5 – 6 hours if I’m lucky. Only 1 night did I sleep less than 2 hours. I try to nap during the day, but it never works. I seem to be getting more done at night when I’m unable to sleep than I do during the day. I like things to be organized. Anything that can be organized alphabetically, is, including my filing cabinets, all my spices, and the apps on my phone. I also organize my spices by size and brand. Maybe that’s a bit excessive, but it makes me feel good to be organized. Being productive is something that helps me feel better, which is why I keep trying to get things done. If I can’t sleep, I think it’s better to be productive than just sit on the couch watching TV or waiting for the morning to come.

The only issue is that I feel that I need to stay quiet so I don’t wake my husband. Luckily he has ear plugs that he wears, but I’m still cautious. Just because I can’t sleep doesn’t mean he shouldn’t sleep either. I haven’t cleaned my house in 6 days. So if I can’t sleep again tonight, then I know what I’ll be doing.  I’ll dust every surface, clean the kitchen, clean the bathrooms, and anything else I can find to do, I’ll just do it as quietly as possible.

I start a new medication tonight, the Clozapine that I’ve been talking about, and I’m so nervous. I keep pretending I’m okay, but I’m not, I’m a wreck inside. I’m trying to think of the positives. The first thing that comes to my mind is that one side effect is drowsiness. Normally that would be a negative aspect, but since I’m not sleeping much, the drowsiness side effect could actually work in my favor. If I end up being tired and actually sleeping, I will just have to clean the house tomorrow.

My psychiatrist is fantastic. He asked me to check in with him every day to make sure that there are no problems. It’s nice to know that he will be available every day just in case I have an issue. It’s time to take my meds; I’m anxious, but I’m ready to find out how well it goes.

3 thoughts on “Problems Sleeping, Still

  1. I’ve had problems with sleep for half my life. I went to a sleep specialist last year. She told me for a week not go to bed until 3 and get up at 7. NO NAPS. After a week increase your sleep time by 15 minutes every night until you get up to 8 hours. If you don’t sleep one night stay at that time for the next night (until you sleep for that period of time). Also, do boring things at night. Nothing productive. By doing that you don’t have anything to look forward to except sleep at night. Hope some of that can help you. And if the klonopin doesn’t help you, maybe you need a bit higher of a dose. I loved the stuff until I had to switch to Ativan due to ECT.

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    1. I prefer to stay up as late as possible as well, because then I tend to sleep for several hours without interruption. Whenever I go to sleep at a reasonable time, I wake up after only about an hour. Very frustrating. I can try to do something boring, right now that is possible. But when I’m manic or on the up side of mixed episodes, it’s not that easy. Thanks for the suggestions.


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